Friday, August 29, 2003

My life is also rated R.
What is your life rated?


it's funny cuz i've only been 17 for a month and a day. *happy month-day to me*

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Just a quick post to announce the top 10 favourite wedding songs in the UK, since that's so relevant to our everyday life:

10. Lady In Red by Chris de Burgh
9. Hero by Enrique Iglesias
8. From This Moment by Shania Twain
7. The Power of Love by Jennifer Rush
6. Love Is All Around by Wet Wet Wet (*sigh* yes, i know what the name sounds like.. but they're not some kind of weird porn-band)
5. If Tomorrow Never Comes by Ronan Keating
4. (Everything I Do) I Do It For You by Bryan Adams
3. Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton
2. Have I Told You Lately by Van Morrison
1. Angels by Robbie Williams

(i love that angels song, it's awesome)

also -- my shiney silver is back up on the network! the screen is messed up, but at least i can get use it some again... yey!!!

Monday, August 25, 2003

well. i was going to have a really nice thoughtful post here that was all deep and shit, but i want to use some kind of 'expand text' thing with it, and i'm far too tired to look one up or try and comprehend asking someone about it. so, maybe another day, though if i dont do it now.... it'll prolly never get done.

instead, you get this super-interesting convo between me and bry:
freezefire666: man i replaced my toothbrush batteries
freezefire666: FUCKING HELL
freezefire666: i thought the thing was gonna explode
AmidalaLover5000: lol
freezefire666: i was like SHIIIIIIIIIITTTT
AmidalaLover5000: lol
freezefire666: then i realised that was normal
freezefire666: and i'd been running it on nearly-dead batteries way too long
AmidalaLover5000: ah
freezefire666: so yea
freezefire666: my teeth feel uberclean
well, being bored and not wanting to start on my stupid english essay, I've decided to do a weekend post after all, since though my convo with tripp does sum it up, it was somewhat more exciting than that : P
friday alé drove down from UNT and picked me up mid-8th period (my off period) and *yey* we escape to the freedom of the weekend. we headed to the parks mall to supposedly do some shopping for stuff he needed for his dorm/college life/etc, but got distracted by the weird stuff in that outdoor store (G-something), the shiney things in Spencers, and the cool boots in planet sole. so having accomplished nothing, we went back to chez-moreno and watched Princess Monoke (sp?) which was a pretty good movie.. i mean.. *avoids blows from various people* a WONDERFUL, GREAT MOVIE.
the movie was longer than we'd anticipated, so by the time we headed off to vikingfest (i wanted to buy a yearbook) it was nearly 7. we arrived, and stood in line so i could write out my blank signed check (compliments of LA) for the yearbook. (we contemplated making an escape to Cancun to live the high life, but in the end we were too lazy ; P ) we saw some people who recognised alé and that was rather interesting, and also Victoria Smith and Armand. we met kathy, katie, emily, and tri, and i bought a [CHOCOLATE!] cupcake from theresa lim my jr friend from orchestra and health sci I last year.
then another escape, this time to get food. i tried to tell alé about the thai place i went to dinner with gentry, aroon, max, and the crew of gentry's friends when he came to visit, but i couldnt remember the name, or the location (i'm so cool like that). in the end, somehow, he figured out just where the heck i was talking about and we arrived at 8 or so. yum. food. good. i still dont know the name tho : P .
after the meal we didnt really have much to do, so we drove around for a while the usual alé style (crazy and reckless : ) ) and blared BT. then we headed to river legacy to see if we could wander round the park a bit, but it closed at 10, and it was 10, so we decided not to take chances. we headed to gibbons park which is by butler instead and hung there for a while, trying to stargaze on a rather overcast evening. we actually saw a few stars, tho. i saw 3 or so and alé proved he has better vision (or simply more convincing hallucinations) by seeing 4 or 5. then the escape for friday ended, and i returned home.
saturday was lazy and boring. i dont remember what i did, for most of the day, but it wasnt hw... it wasnt really anything productive. alé picked me up for another escape around 6, and we went to see pirates of the caribbean, a movie that was actually really good and far exceeded what i thought it'd be like. i want the soundtrack, it was very noice (from what i could tell between being distracted by the action, plot, and whatnot : ) ).
sunday was lazy, and boring, and consisted of me actually doing hw... or at least, some of it. made my 'bag of me' for health science, and so lots of you now have your pictures stuck on a paper bag on display in mrs key's room, if you care to know. i think my little speil today about coding, aim, and quakecon left most people staring blankly, but turns out jeff adams went to quakecon for saturday and he also recognised a few of you seniors (dont you feel special?).
so yea. that pretty much sums up the weekend part.

but, i have to include this ever-so-enlightening convo with chris, that shortly followed the one i posted earlier:

TrippSkiggins: OO! That reminds me
TrippSkiggins: I had the coolest dream last night
freezefire666: what was it?
TrippSkiggins: my cousins told me to watch this movie, so I did...
TrippSkiggins: It started by showing a bunch of gorillas, one of which had the face of Jim Carrey
freezefire666: lol
TrippSkiggins: the the gorillas became lions (which I didn't actually realize until after I woke up), and the Jim Carrey lion ran screaming through the pride of other lions and they all ran screaming after him...
TrippSkiggins: my cousins told me that he had just seen a ladybug and was scared
freezefire666: *laughs*
freezefire666: so random! i love it
TrippSkiggins: all the lions jumped this fence and I ran after them, also jumping like 10 ft-tall fences
TrippSkiggins: then there was the guy who owned the lions, and he went looking at the next farm to see if they had them
TrippSkiggins: I was then the Jim Carrey lion and went to some random store in the middle of this field which had a lady in it who loved cats.
TrippSkiggins: the end
freezefire666: that's great
freezefire666: you win best dream of the week award
freezefire666: it made a grand total of 0 sense

also winning an award this week for 'most strange pictures in a small amount of space' is THIS SITE.

and finally: what better to use to hold my ID round my neck at Lamar than my QuakeCon nametag? aw yea... ; P

Sunday, August 24, 2003

TrippSkiggins: you update your site too little
freezefire666: i'm sorry
freezefire666: there's not much to update about
freezefire666: slept. went out. came back. slept. did hw. ate, somewhere in there
freezefire666: oh wait. went out again
freezefire666: eh mix those up
TrippSkiggins: post that
freezefire666: lol
freezefire666: *does*

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

oh, and btw! i've seen a few people round school like martin bishop with quakecon tshirts on! lol.
well let's see. today wasnt too bad, really! english was ok, NO EDL THANK GOD and i dont mind poetry much. *shrugs* not really sure what to think so far, but being in the class with kathy, emily, tri, & mel makes it interesting and fun. i got assigned that infamous 'i am' poem and a two page autobiography about 'anything.' as long as 'anything' includes what i did to prepare for the ap test last year, how i did, how i feel i did, and how i feel about the ap test in general. *...* anyway. it could be much worse, i'm sure, lol.
french is kinda hell right now cuz i dont remember anything. especially verbs. oh man verbs *groans*. luckily mrs eldridge is a nice teacher and she knows that i missed a year in between french II and III so i think i'll survive..
lunch was calm today cuz oj and matt went off to somebody's houses, kathy and tri got stuck in chem, and mel and katie just didnt show up at the meeting place. so emily and i jumped in her car after beeing chased off school property and headed to her mom's house, where we ate, drank, and generally made merry. we also reminisced about last year and talked about what i am to do about my eigth period.. more on that topic later.
calc was ... an adventure. i arrived about 15 minutes before class started, and had to wait a while before they let us go up the stairs.. god forbid we arrive early for class. but even then i was a good 12 minutes early. still, i wasnt the first. irene was there, and so were about 5 other people. everybody'd come early to get a seat, since about 10 people in our class have to sit on the floor. i saved a seat for ma k-girl kathy behind me, and mel came in a bit later and had no seat, so he sat in the isle next to me, occasionally banging his head on my elbow cuz..... he's mel. class proceeded. mostly it was review, but i had a hard time concentrating on what he was saying, i dunno why. i'm kinda worried cuz i remember less of what i learned last year than i thought i did. the hw was easy though, cept for the last question, and i finished that in 8th period. the title for the hw, though, really got me. it seems so random! it says:
"Label Label Label, I Made It Out of Clay"
what does that have to do with calculus? lol oh well.
since i have an off period 8th period i headed to mrs abel's class cuz i cant go home (stepdad wont pick me up, then come back in an hour and a half to pick up my sister & her two friends we carpool with). i dropped off my homecoming picture in mrs mckees room. i had a hella time figuring out which one to turn in, and when i asked people for their opinion, i got pretty much even votes on all three pictures : P
i scanned some of the pics and sent them to alé last night, who retouched them and made them look a little nicer.
this picture wasnt one of the ones i got blown up to maybe turn in, as i wanted my 'arm art' to show, but the third picture i brought to school alé doesnt have on his site, so i cant link to it, can i?

this second pic was popular, tho prolly the least popular of the three i took to school today. the one that's not shown tied closely with the one i ended up picking.

THIS pic is the one i ended up picking, as you can see my kneehigh boots (compliments of emily, they killed my feet as she wears a size 7 and i a 10), my kilt, my necklace, armlet, arm art, headband, and the evil look on my face very well.

emily and kathy both turning in 'unique' pictures as well, and all three of us are happy cuz we feel like we're adding a little zest to homecoming, as most people turn in some fairly normal senior pic or just an ordinary pic. who knows? maybe we'll come dressed up like that to homcoming. now that would be awesome. mrs mckee wasnt really sure what to think, i think, when she saw all of our pics, lol. she exclaimed over all three of them, and then admitted 'you guys are killing me with these!'
btw, katie had some awesome pictures too, but as she's the photographer of the four of us, her pictures (taken by us) didnt turn out as nice as ours did. but she did turn in a really pretty one of her in her backyard with her hair up.
*coughs* so yea. i was planning on meeting drew in mr schumacher (sp?) 's office to show him the preview-trailer for drew's movie, but he got there early, so by the time i got there at 2:10 (the time he said he'd be there) he was gone. mr schumacher and i talked for a bit though, and it was nice cuz he's friendly. he started talking about dawson's creek, tho i'm not really sure why, and i've never watched that show. then i went back to mrs abel's class and looked in the api to see if i could come up any ideas for something to code. mrs abel was ultracool, and let me have an account, though technically i'm not in her class : P. cuz of this, i'm a9hodcro : ) yep.. 9th period.. lol. and hey, it's not my fault the thing's too short to take my whole name! lol.
here's a little schedule that i think is accurate, as far as the last of the 'senior' departures go:
15 August: tripp
17 August: alé, ar00n
20 August: drewish
21 August: thomas-o, cam
22 August: blakerson
Sometime in a month or so: bob (nick)

so wish the last of your fave now-college-freshmen goodbye and give them shiney things, for the week of leaving is arrived!

Monday, August 18, 2003

a little strange but i'm sure it'll be welcomed by all.
HERE is a post on quakecon on CNN. just thought i'd let you all know-a.

also it should be noted that alé's youngest bro pablo has set up a blog and it can be found at right under 'cPilot'

well. the first day of school. um. yes. wow.
it went ok i guess, it was nice to see everyone i havnt seen in a while, like tri, theresa (jr) and others. didnt see my sister all day (such a loss) or pablo (wouldnt actually mind seeing him) but overall the day went well. clinical rotation is prolly my fave class so far just cuz.. i donno. it's freeish, friendly, and i'm one of 4 seniors.. but it's ok, it makes me special, not doing something later than everyone else. plus mrs key likes me so that's always a plus. orchestra seems ok, though i feel very out of place with all the sophmores, freshmen, & jrs. theresa's there tho and we're good friends, so it's cool. that english guy who always wears the manchester shirt is in that orch too, though i dont know him hardly at all. physics looks like it wont be an easy class.. i'll have to work... *groan*. i feel really out of place in that class since there's only 4 seniors but it's more of a feeling of.. why didnt you do this last year?? the girl i sat next to today seemed fairly nice, and leann (?) a (jr) girl i know from orch last year sits in front of me. frank (alé's bro) is in there too which just makes me feel all the younger : P. being in a class with your bfs younger brother... hm....
english seems very cool. me, emily, and kathy are all in the same class, with skye, mel, and tri and a whole load of cool people with us. i think i'll be able to manage that class ok even if it is work. french is scary just cuz.. well.. i've forgotten almost all the french i've taken. plus i'm walking into this little clique that's gone through french together for the last 2 years.. so they're kinda looking at me like.. 'wtf are you doing here, girl?' calculus looks hard. it might not look so hard if there werent so many freaking people in the class!! like 40 or something. god. too many.. far too many. i'd switch class periods if i could.. but i cant.. argh!! i hope everyone drops. cept me. and kathy. and maybe cool people like mel and tri. yea. that's good. i'm afraid my grades will suffer cuz of sheer volume.. i'm not a math wizz in the best conditions : ( . mr bond seems awesome though. eighth period i have off, but i cant go home cuz my ride is with my sister & two of her friends who live nearby (kelsi peck and mimi bui, tien's sister) and they, of course, dont have 8th period off. so i went to comp sci and claimed my seat for the fourth year. yuri and matt (god i feel bad for not knowing if that's his name.. i only went to elementry school with him..) were in there, cuz it's comp sci 2, and yanchi (sp?) was in there for comp sci 3 i think i might take comp sci 4 indep study during that class.. could be a laugh, and it'd mean i still had my comp sci account X D

so yea. i would be looking forwards to calc so much more if it wasnt for the overflowing class. it's really bugging me in the back of my head. last year in precalc we had a little class and i really think that's part of why i did so well for the first time in a long time. i guess i do better in smaller learning environments. well hey! there's a step towards where i'll go to college. ok well that's my required college step this week.. : P

but i donno... school is such a boring road after such an exciting summer.. a jump from extremes.. a flat path compared to the ups and downs, the excitement and unexpectedness that makes summer all that it is. on the way home i was thinking.. 'what now?' for the normal excitements of summer have gone, and i cant even really look forwards to seeing my friends so much, since that landmark has been passed. now it's just.. back to work. but i donno. i can look forwards to seeing alé whenever he comes down, and to whatever weekend mischiefs might arise with the gang. plus there's things like HOMECOMING which is september 5th for those of you blessed enough not to have to listen to mr jones ramblings anymore (and those of you who though you are supposed to, dont). so hey sr people, come back for homecoming. chances of me being on the hc court are slim, so i cant promise the trinity outfit. but hey it'll be like the first reunion or somethin. i'd tell you all to come back and vote, but that's next week so that's kinda pointless since most of you will be far too far away by then to come back just to vote.

so but yea. come back for homecoming. prolly the group that's here is gonna do something weird cuz there's no point in not making an impression in some disturbing way.

listening to daft punk makes me think of summer! argh. memories of driving around in alé's car to see cool people and movies, and go to lans, drew's movie nights, and filming in the movie.

OMFG can you BELIEVE that quakecon ended YESTERDAY?????? it seems like a lifetime away!!! i'm still getting over it.

so yea. that's about all thats in my head today. i'll prolly post again later tonight. oh yea.. and i'll post the pics kk&e and i took on friday night online sometime.. when i'm not so lazy.. : P

Sunday, August 17, 2003

omg.. so many things! quakecon.. summer over.. school starting.. i dont know where to begin. i guess i'll start with quakecon
my first year at quakecon.. omfg it was a blast. i didnt even have a computer, but hanging with friends around computers playing games and messing about was just nirvana right there. as so many have said.. what a way to end the summer and see everyone off with a bang. i'm glad i was able to go.. it would have sucked if i hadnt been there for the final goodbyes, meals, & parties.

last meal: (location: TGI Fridays, West End, Dallas, TX)
Ar00n: a 'super-size' mint chocolate-chocolate chip malt, custom made by our awesome waiter
Blakerson: Buffalo wings and two free ice cream Oreo sandwiches... compliments of, again, our awesome waiter
Em: warm brownie with ice cream and caramel
Alé: Water (and he helped us eat the oreos and the brownie)
total: 17$ somethin
pretty good for a last meal, eh? hehe

we then returned to quakecon and watched the terminator (i dont know what number) while some people did comments on a mic... god it was hilarious.
here's a few quotes:
"Come with me if you want to live... live with me if you want to come."
"Oh shit! I'm in basic! No wonder I can't fucking kill anyone!"
"What is all this clutter on my screen?? How do I get rid of help balloons?!"
"Sex hands!"

things i got at quakecon:
bawls stickers.. loads!
blow up ball
tshirt - " 1 <3 g33ks "
tshirt - "c:\dos\run"
cool retractable mouse

while at quakecon... number of times....
I got my picture taken: 4
I got comments on my sharpie arm-art: 5
I got invited to hotel room parties: 1
Complete strangers tried to strike up conversation: 3

The last words uttered by each of the immortal SSB members to each other as they left Quakecon, and began the journey to and through college (or, as in my case.. highschool):
(which got us many strange looks, indeed)

times that aroon said 'i'll never see you again, em!' and saw me again:
prolly somewhere near 10

Chances that i'll see aroon again this time (before quakecon next year)...:
: ( slim...

Minutes away that alé is going:

but god. this summer... this summer has been without a doubt the best summer of my life. lans, parties, friends... i dont know what else i could ask for.. except maybe being here during july.. or for it not to end!! it seems.. well here. let me put in a convo i held with myself in thomas's im window:
Loweaugen (11:31:28): summer's over
Loweaugen (11:31:32): everyone's gone
Loweaugen (11:32:51): : (
Loweaugen (11:32:58): just one quick bye and that's it
Loweaugen (11:33:05): wont see aroon till... a long time
Loweaugen (11:33:11): wont see blake around for a long time
Loweaugen (11:33:15): dunno when i'll see alé again.. though that'll be sooner..
Loweaugen (11:33:19): if you ask me
Loweaugen (11:33:26): goodbyes arent ever long enough
Loweaugen (11:33:47): for the length of time you've spent with them
Loweaugen (11:33:53): and the length of time until you see them again
Loweaugen (11:37:49): 10 seconds just isnt enough to take in that you wont see them again for an unknown amount of time.. prolly a long amount of time
Loweaugen (11:37:55): a hug, a smile, a wave
Loweaugen (11:38:05): that's supposed to sum up your friendship? all the times you've had?
Loweaugen (11:38:15): *sits gloomily*
Loweaugen (11:38:22): i hate goodbyes

it's true. i mean... i spend like two days partying with aroon blake and alé and then... in about 20 seconds you get hit by reality.. they're going... you wont see them again for who knows how long.. you smile, joke, say goodbye, hug.. and watch them go. and that's it. though i must add.. quakecon was the end... and GOOD LORD was it a great one.. : )
i will miss everyone so much. i've grown close to these people i didnt even know 6 months ago... : P. when did i first get to know aroon (the first one i got to know of the little groupie)? just before the robot contest... january sometime. lol remember yahoo im, aroon? all those strange pics we drew? then on the ice days i meet alé for the first time, and amith and pablo. then i kinda met alé again online, and got challenged by him to find a picture of a purple toaster.. and i succeeded!! member alé? heheehe. and the lan at cameron's house... where aroon blasted out completely inappropriate songs at cam's old house? lol. then after much encouragement by alé i messaged thomas... i remember alé telling me about how he had once asked thomas what the diff was between him and a gothic person.. thomas replied 'i'm depressed for a reason.' mm.. yes.. my first impression of thomas. lol. then i met blake, a very strange person indeedy. met him off nick... i met nick at the same time i met aroon, around the robot building contest. well.. but i think i knew him before that.. or was that after that? lol. my memory sucks. i just remember coming in the morning and greeting him.. 'hi bob! wassup?' we both went to brekenridge and skied/snoboareded on the same peak for spring break.. but didnt know about it till the day we came back to school and i was telling mrs abel about it.. hehehe. oh, and dont forget drew. LORD DREW! when did i meet him? 3 years ago? so long ago. that's actually a very long time. and this summer i've helped him make this movie.. which i'd better get a dvd of, drewish! YEA. ever notice everyone's got nicknames? well kinda. i dont call aroon nigga, lol. ar00n, bob, blakerson, alé, drewish. go further and you've got bry, cam, oj, em.

i guess the saddest thing is... summer's gone. i cant get it back.. no one can. never will it be like this summer again. the mature smart thing to do is to let it go, remember it with a huge grin, and laugh knowingly to those who were there. but it's hard. hard to accept that good times like those are gone. sure, more good times will come, and maybe even better ones.. but there's the uniqueness of this summer that wont ever return. prolly it's just moreso for me, as this is the first summer i've been able to experience anything close to this.. as usually i'm in britain. and i tell you what.. for the first summer in america.. you guy's helped make it a memorable HELL of an experience. : ). (much to the rich bastard's dismay, i'm sure). i guess the good side is.. i thought the same thing when comp sci 2 came to and end... god... that was definately competition with the SSB group. and i thought then... it'll never be the same.... and it isnt... but i found more good times! they're different.. but i wouldnt miss them out for the world if i had to go back and do it again.

thank you so much for letting me hang with you guys this summer.. X D

so remember everyone... porkchop sandwiches, DONT GIVE HIM THE STICK. there is no retard in team, it's three easy steps: jus' flip it, stick it, and see ya lata, bye.

Friday, August 15, 2003

well, i got so into looking at the summer pix that i went through that group again, picked out my faves, and posted them on a new blog. you wont have to go checking it daily, i'll leave a link here for when i update it. it's pretty much just a picture book. anywayz, go have a look and see whatcha think! : P

Thursday, August 14, 2003

oooo! so i took on this project today that was fun and ultra-cool! i got some new floppies today just cuz i use them (and my mom was buying) and i was trying to clear out some of the old ones and move old stuff from them onto my comp. one wouldnt work, so i transplanted it's 'brains' into another floppy that i'd already cleared so i could get the stuff off it. after i got all i needed, i hung the floppy guts and a broken floppy from my light and fan pulls on my ceiling light... hehe! pull the 'guts' for the light and the floppy for the fan. voila!
so then i'm sitting around thinking.. what else can i do with a floppy disk? and i think.. light switch plate! this involves drilling holes, and a place for the switch, and i dont have anything to drill with, so i got creative, but it worked! i used my screwdrivers and scraped away at the plastic.. go me! i have blisters now but it's all good! here are pictures! they're a bit blurry, but live with it.

very cool, eh? hehe!!

so while i was uploading those.. i found these from the summer... mouse over to see what they are and stuff.

a close-up of my eye me, libby, and kenneth at a football game at the team my dad's the director of me blowing out candles on my bday cake.. made with melted chocolate for icing the sign above the check-in desk at gatwick

so yep. that's about it : )
finished the filming with drew today, who then rewarded oj and i (the only ones there) by taking us to monis and treating us to a big plate of fried calamari.. mmm...
after that i went home, it was actually pretty late in the afternoon... 6ish. filming went on a bit cuz we didnt start till late cuz we all got up late : P. i was planning to perhaps go do something with alé, aroon, & maybe nick, but times flies, and alé had to go to quakecon, for registration.. which last that i heard, still hadn't started! (11 or so pm)
so i decided to stay in for the night, and watched south park, whose line, and dumb and dumber, and a little of american pie 2 (i might finish that here in a few) and hear about quakecon via sms messaging on the cell : P
prolly on friday i'll go down there for a look and oogle with nick, since he's cool and says he can give me a ride.

so, cuz my attention span is GONE and cuz i'm waiting for message back from alé and people are talking to me on aim, i'll leave you with a few things:

true words from a good friend:
Llenon: don't feel stupid, just take note and move on

Ryan Stiles r0x0rs!
"Mind if i take a bath with your toaster? Ok!" - Ryan Stiles 'Whose Line Is It Anyway?'

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

k i thought i'd clarify a few things. for one thing. excuse. i'm like.. hyper and stupid and crazy all at once. maybe i took some of nick's pills w/o knowing it. so that's why my post is all over the place and extremely poorly organised, not to mention the horrible spelling.. oh wait... that's normal.
anyway.. to clarify the thing about alé's brothers: i'm nice to them cuz they're my age therefore they'll be in classes with me next year and so i'll prolly be seeing lots of them. not that i'd be mean to them anyway. but yea. um.. i'm going to shut up now afore i say something really stupid : P.
well i've got some extra time and i'm not tired so maybe ill make something of a decent post today. day started early, as usual, about 8:30 or so when i got up to take a shower before the builders could come be nazis over my water as they have been the last few days. so i take my shower and eat an apple and come back to sit at my computer. it's only like 9:30.. ARGH! by the time alé gets on at around 10:30 i'm ready for the day to be over. why? i donno. blargh. the day just goes too slowly when you get up early. my mom said she'd take me drivin around 10:30, but no.. that didnt work out.. we didnt get going till almost half twelve. by this time i'm starving, but my mom wants to run errands before we get lunch. so i drive to the bank so she can get something notorized when she gets a phone call... two phone calls... one from the builders (who she screams and yells at a lot cuz they were supposed to be finished almost a month ago) and one from her actual work... so instead of spending 10 odd minutes in the bank we spend 40 or so odd minutes in the bank, with me sitting in a seat feeling completely out of place in my casual dress.
finally we take off from the bank and head towards the post office. oh joy. half an hour of standing in line later, my mom decides to give divine permission to go to wendy's and eat. then off to the clinic to see if we can get me a Hepititis B shot as i have to get one to be in clinical rotation. well they said no, but i dont remember why.

no. wait. the clinic was before lunch. after lunch i called nick and went by to get the 'ring' dvd i left at his house.

then it was off to the mall. the plan was to get me some vans and leave. well, on the way to the vans store we go by some shoe store that has doc martins that are about mid calf lace up black boots. i go over to look at them and out of nowhere my mom goes 'you want them?' so i have a choice.. 50$ vans or 80$ boots... i choose the boots. one of them i'm going to buy myself.. so i choose the cheaper option. but of course, fate hates me, as usual, so when i ask the lady for my size, she tells me the display model is the only pair they have left. well it's a size 5 and i'm a size 10, so i dont see that working. (yes, i know, i have huge feet.) so i wander around the whole rest of the mall to see if there's any similar shoes. of course, there's not. and i dont feel like vans anymore, so i turn them down too.
two stops after that: farmer's market and kroger. for once when i arrive home from driving i'm not mentally exhausted.
i get online, and alé's online, so i ask him what the plan for tonight is, and i hear aroon and soph are gonna be makin salad then we're all gonna watch a movie, but i cant go over till around 8 cuz i've been bound to eat at home. this is about 6:00 so i figure we've got plenty of time for dinner. well all cept my mom forgot about half the stuff to make what we were having and my sister decides to pull some stunt that leaves my mom driving all over town (i'm not sure what happened). but it worked out ok cuz i ended up finishing my dinner before 8 anyhow. so alé heads over and we go back to his house. it was a neat drive cuz the storm was coming and you could see the lightning really well. after being kicked out of the kitchen due to commands from aroon and soph nick, alé, and i all head outside. it was really really cool outside watching the lightning, and it wasnt hot so it felt nice. nick was being attacked by the mosquitos so he headed back in, and then alé's mom called him in. while i'm sitting there alone the wind suddenly picks up and the storms right over us. it smelled so strongly of rain, it was awesome. it happened really suddenly, too. the salad's done, so we head back inside, but the power goes out! hehehe... good fun. just as we put the salad on the table and light some candles the power comes back on, but the candles look so nice we turn all the lights off again. i ate a few bites of salad and it was very good (go aroon and soph : P ) and the 'special' lemonade was good too. then we went upstairs to watch 'Clerks.' i sat by alé and sometimes watched the lightning out the window, and it started raining. i think the movie's alright, but aroon and nick thought very strongly otherwise : P. it was pretty much time to go then, so everyone got dragged out of the house so alé could be the chauffer and drop everyone off *pats alé on head* j/k : ).

and then.. i was home!

and then.. i started writing this.. and finished at 2:28 am.. no matter what the stupid blog says i posted at.

as drew's away message says, here is the weird and crazy convo i am to post. i didnt put it directly on here cuz it's too big. so it's a link. so deal with it!

so yea. today was ok.. cept for the last bit, which was GOOD FUN! lol. i'm nice to alé's siblings and their friends since.. hell... they're my age. which makes me feel damn young. but yes.. truely a happy day


Tuesday, August 12, 2003

lol yes for a much longer version of what happened yesterday go to Alé's Blog. cuz i'm layzay.
welllll! fun day today. kinda. water was turned off buy the builders.. who didnt get it back on till about 11:15. all this time i'm waiting for a shower. well the hot water didnt get turned on till 11:30... then the shower broke. so yea. that was fun.....
anyway... went flming with alé, aroon, oj, and drew in a cemetary for the movie, then back to drew's house to joke around, laugh, and COOL DOWN. then the 5 of us went to dinner at monis. i had to go home then and clean my room, but afterwards i went and played SSB with alé, aroon, and thomas. on his way to my house alé skidded on the road and did a 360... DONT DIE! lol but he and his jetta are ok so it's all good. i did actually fairly decent for a newcomer at the SSB, lol. i even lived to the end of a few rounds : P
so yea. i'm sorry i'm making short generic posts.. i do have some all thinky stuff banging around in my head but i'm just too busy and too uncaring to bother over the meaning of life right now : P. why not just have fun and enjoy it! i'll have plenty of time to think out my woes and all once school starts!

so anyway, here are some convo clips for today:

XTeamWriter1: but i have to fucking find my cell phone
Loweaugen: hm..
Loweaugen: call it?
XTeamWriter1: lol, good idea
Loweaugen: heh
XTeamWriter1: found it
Loweaugen: smart emma

Llenon: tell him to give me some
Loweaugen: lol
Loweaugen: taking that out of context it sounds really funny
Llenon: oh yeah, well...

Loweaugen: *gets the hiccups*
Loweaugen: ahhh!
RJetta8V: hiccups are sexy
Loweaugen: ?!? lol
RJetta8V: XD
Loweaugen: hehehe
RJetta8V: ok, maybe a better word would be cute
Loweaugen: they're painful is what they are : P

Saturday, August 09, 2003

i got a UTILIKILT!!
it's the origional style with a neo-traditional front and nightwatch camo style... it looks just like this picture

except it's 14" long.. a micro mini, so it's more girly, i guess. if you can really call it girly at all : P. it reminds me of cs. i wish i could put my character in this kilt (except longer, as cs people are all guys). it is now my offcial CS skirt.
i got it from my mom & LA for my bday as a present, since they're fairly expensive.. it's camo for my senior year : P
in my opinion.. everybody (esp guys) should wear kilts. either traditional, or utilikilt style.. hehe! sorry, it's just my Scot side coming through. kilts are sexy, end of story. ; P
so guys! go out and buy a kilt! i cant see anybody looking bad in a kilt. ohhh but one rule... gotta wear undies under your kilt. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST DO. otherwise it's disgusting. i'm not that scottish..
so yes! um.. i also got 160$ and some bath&bodyworks stuff and a cd holder. so that's all cool. at least i'm not broke anymore, lol.
LOOK! here are 10 reasons why you should wear a kilt. if you're comfortable with yourself as a guy, wearing a kilt should be no problem. if you're scared about your sexuality, YOU'RE A WUSS. so yes. go on. i dare you.
wow what a day.... fun fun! well.. the second part. the first part, i have to go driving, and i hate driving. but lunch at taco bell.. mmm!! i love taco bell. i dreamed about going to taco bell when i was in britain. anyway, so then i went home, and alé picked me up to take me to drew's to film some scene they did in the bathroom with the door closed where alé kept saying 'ok, assume the position.. c'mon.. i'm impatient!' hehehe. then me, alé, drew, aroon, and this guy called kyle all went and saw SWAT, which was ok it made alé, aroon, and i all want to play CS : P. after dropping off drew and aroon alé and i went to gus's halo thing, which was fun. i'd never played halo before, but i got to learn, and it was ok, though i much prefer CS. aroon came and thomas came and blake came, so after a while we got bored and left for thomas's house to play SSB. but when we got to thomas's house we ended up watching some f*cked up but hilarious cops show for a while. then i had to come home, and here i am. i'm hungry, as i havent had any food since taco bell at 12. FOOD! but there is none, so i shall go hungry.

i had some insightful stuff to put in here, but i'm tired, so i wont do that today... tomorrow.

and lastly, i'd like to post this poem my sister wrote. she's not all bad after all, is she.

she was surrounded by people who cared
people who loved and people who shared
blinded by her happy smile
their jokes and laughing seemed worth while
her eyes were bright and her soul so clean
but something changed at the age of sixteen
still the friends, they appeared to care
but a different essance filled the air
she felt alone though standing enclosed
this "just a phase" was misdiagnosed
slowly she faded, withdrawn
and then one day, she was gone
- lizzy h 8/8/03

*has had a great day and loves all her friends : ) *

Thursday, August 07, 2003

well wow. the days have been so busy, it's great. no complaining from me, though you'll hear otherwise from my mom if you asked, i'm sure. there's been.. the movie, frys, nick's lan, movie night, and perhaps something tomorrow. i am having a great time spending so much time with mes amis.
anyway, so at nick's lan i had like half an hour when i suddenly got amazingly good (for me) at CS, so i took a screenshot, which i shall now post : P.
i understand it's prolly not that great, but hey! for me it is! lol

anywayyyyyyyyyy... that's about it.. i'm pretty tired. slept from 7-4 today ; P

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

so yea! for all those interested here's my 2003-2004 schedule:

1 & 2. Health Science, Clinical Rotation ('HOSA') - Key
3. Orchestra - Coatney
4. Physics Hnrs (1) - Reimer

5. AP English - Bufkin
6. French 3 - Eldridge
7. AP Calc BC - Bond
8. Off period *phew*

i'm so friggin happy the schedule worked out. it's a miracle, seriously. esp since mrs hammonds quit and now mrs hager or something is working there.. course she doent now how to work the computer or anything so schedule changes today were hell. (though not far from usual, i guess). anyway. i'm pretty happy with my schedule.
good fun movie at thomas's house tonight though i dozed off a few times.. : P
lataz *bows*

Sunday, August 03, 2003

all this and more at
Ballmer takes on Linux - Computerworld

i thought this article was interesting...
Raver Bear
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Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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hahahahahhahaah "you are also quite entranced with bright, shiny things. Ooooh..." hahahhaahah

Saturday, August 02, 2003

so i'm doing some project for drivers ed, where i have to find the 5 most dangerous intersection in arlington. i go to google and type in '5 most dangerous intersections in arlington tx.' These were my results. i was so happy when i saw the first one.... but it got me for a second when maquest 'couldnt find the street'... HAHAHAHAHA.

a brand new template! isnt it awesome?? hehe. i decided i'd have to make the switch cuz i couldnt fit all the blog links on the top of my old blog.. so here! i like it muchos.

btw - any link that's got white around it means you havnt visited it yet... so you'll be able to keep track of which blogs you need to go check! : )
yea, i know. two surveys in one day? well. i'm bored. and i like doing these.
so i got this off ojs site, who got it off blakes site, who got it off aroons site : P

01. Kissed your cousin: nope
02. Ran away: kindof
03. Pictured your crush naked: i'm human (that's a yes)
04. Actually seen your crush naked: the one i ended up dating, yea
05. Broken someone's heart: probably. not proud
06. Been in love: yeaz
07. Cried when someone died: yes
08. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yea
09. Broken a bone: my skull
10. Drank alcohol: yes. didnt like it.
11. Lied: never
12. Cried in school: yeaz


13. Coke or Pepsi: COOOOKKEEEEE
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite
15. Girls or Guys: guys, with the exception of kk&e
16. Flowers or candy: flowers
17. Scruff or Clean shaven: depends on the person, dudnt it?
18. Quiet or Loud: depends what it is.
19. Blondes or Brunettes: why yes, i do base my life off jokes... why do you ask?
20. Bitchy or Slutty: neither...??
21. Tall or Short: tall
22. Pants or Shorts: no preference


23. What do you notice first: whether they've got a sense of humor or not (observing from a safe distance... strangers are scary)
24. Last person you slow danced with: aj
25. Worst Question To Ask: them to ask me? "you've been to england? so what's london like? have you met the queen? say something in english!"


26. Showered: this mornin
27. Had Sex: my past life i s'pose
28. Had a great time with the opposite sex: this evening at pablos LAN
29. Your Good Luck Charm: my eyes.
30. Person You Hate Most: all those preps. GOD THEY'RE LIKE CLONES *covers head* and yes, i know what you're all thinking. and no, i dont want to change my answer.
31. The Best Thing That Has Happened To You: discovering all my friends


32. Color: PURPLE
33. Movie: dogma
34. Subject in school: comp sci, health science
35. Juices: pineapple
36. Cars: BMW Z3 Roadster
37. Ice Cream: vanilla
39. Season: all have their perks
40. Breakfast Food: something that is not a typical breakfast food (pot pies, burritoes)


43. Makes you laugh the Most: those crazy people i hang out with : D
44. Makes you smile: see the above
45. Can make you feel better no matter what: no matter what?? nothing. but most of the time, my closest friends. and sacrifices of minions.


46. Who Has had A Crush On You: a few people
47. Have you ever had a Crush On Someone: yeaz
49. Has it easier guys or girls: guys have it way too easy.
50. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Cops.. and usually security personnel <-- going with oj.


50. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: GOD, I'M NOT THAT SAD!.. i sit on aim waiting for someone to log on instead.
51. Save AOL conversations: Every convo I have is automatically logged. <-- ditto
52. Save Emails: yep
53. Wish you were someone else: the different views would be interesting, but not as a permanant change
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: for one day <--agreed <-- indeed. <-- t'would be interesting


56. Cologne: lord like i know
57. Perfume: ditto.
58. Kiss: ones with someone you love
59. Romantic memory: purple roses on v-day
60. Most recent advice given to you: dont get your hopes up


61. Fallen for your best friend?: nope
62. Made out with just a friend?: nope
63. Been Rejected?: s'pose so
64. Been in love?: yeaz
65. Been in lust?: dun think so
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used: dun think so
68. Cheated on someone?: never
69. Been cheated on?: not that i'm aware of (im very sure the answer is no)
70. Been kissed?: indeed
71. Done something you regret?: hasnt everybody?


72. You touched?: hugged alé
73. You talked to?: as in real life? cameron
74. You hugged?: alé
75. You instant messaged?: gentry
76. You had sex with?: naebody
77. You yelled at?: umm.... onurcan i think
78. You laughed with?: alé and cameron
79. Who broke your heart?: ..
81. Who told you they loved you?: mom


82. Color your hair?: jeezus why bother
83. Have tattoos?: someday
84. Have piercings?: ears... someday belly button
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: nope
86. Own a webcam?: yeaz
87. Own a thong?: yeaz
88. Ever get off the damn computer?: hahaha NO
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: -> translate
90. Habla espanol?: je parle francais
91. Quack?: i also speak english. BOTH KINDS

i'm so sorry! i really am.

Friday, August 01, 2003

[start of conversation]
Teen Start Riot: would i be a hot or ugly girl?
freezefire666: i donno, never seen you
Teen Start Riot: ok
[end of conversation]

(teen start riot is some random person who ims me with random questions on a regular basis)

just thought i'd post some of this randomness. it's amusing : )
k i got this off my sisters site, but i'm bored, so i'm filling it out.

-- Name: Her Royal Majesty Princess Emma the Great (... Em...)
-- Birthplace: hospital

-- Current Location: mi house in arlington
-- Eye Color: green luvly
-- Hair Color: brown
--Height: 5'5
--Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Your heritage: i dont think american is much of a heritage so i'll say english
-- Your weakness: worrying about others, my fear of being left behind, my temper, my frikin bossyness
-- Your fears: being left behind and rejected. <-- going with my sister on this. also: dead bugs, butterflies, makeup
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: be a doctor. i think. code stuff alot, and build stuff. also to get married and have a few kids. also to do everything i possibly want to do. my goal is to achieve my goals : P
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: definately lol. after that ROFL or LMAO
-- Your thoughts first waking up: here they are, in order: i'm so uncomfortable, it's too hot/cold, i wanna go back to sleep, wonder if anyone's online?
-- Your best physical feature: eyes/smile. i dont like my fingers, though
-- Your bedtime: whenever i feel like going to bed
-- Your most missed memory: 'those days are gone now, and in the past, they must remain' - Flower of Scotland (old scottish anthem) [that's to show that digging around memories is useless.. not that my fave memory is a song]
-- Pepsi or Coke: COKE COKE COKE.. pepsi is brown water
-- McDonald's or Burger King: *sings* mcdonals mcdonalds kentucky fried chicken and a pizza hut ... i choose WENDYS
-- Adidas or Nike: neither... SKETCHERS
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea definitely
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla coke and chocolate cake <-- going with my sis on this again : P
--Cappuccino or coffee: ewwwwwwwwwww... how about some traditional english tea? : P
-- smoke: yes. arent my charred black lungs, yellow teeth, and smokestack breath sexy? and all that erotic coughing.... NO
-- Cuss: why the fuck are you asking me this question?! it's bullshit! good lord everyone knows i dont fucking CUSS!
-- Sing: yes! i dont sing very well, but i love to do it, so you'll have to learn to like it : P
-- Take a shower every day: yup
-- Do you think you've been in love: yeaz
-- Want to go to college: definately.
-- High school: a little late to say i dont wanna go... : P

-- Want to get married: sumday
-- Get motion sickness: not really
-- Think you're attractive: i dont think i'm ugly
-- Think you're a health freak: compared to the average obese american i probably am. i dont eat fast food every other day! *gasp* but to me, no.
-- Get along with your parents: ok with my mom, not so great with my dad (to put it mildly)
-- Like thunderstorms: indeed. except for power outs. i hate power outs.
-- Play an instrument: violina! i used to play piano, but i can do the whole different hands doing different things thing.. i cant explain it.. and DONT point out that i play violin! lol. it's different.
In the past month . . .
-- Drank alcohol: my dad tried to get me to, but i refused.
-- Smoked: oh yea. like a chimmney. *rolls eyes*
-- Done a drug: nope
-- Had sex: nope again
-- Made out: nope
-- Gone on a date: nope
-- Gone to the mall: yeap
-- Eaten sushi: NEVA!
-- Been on stage: nope
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Gone skating: ice and roller, yes.
-- Made homemade cookies: my sister does that
-- Gone skinny dipping: nope
-- Dyed your hair: nope
-- Stolen anything: nope
Ever . . .
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: only in a joking fashion where nothing was really removed
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: only on laughter and lack of sleep (though when i'm laughing and tired i might as well be drunk)
-- Been caught doing something? i was caught breathing this morning.. DAMNIT
-- Been called a tease: yes. i'm not proud
-- Gotten beaten up: nope. won all my fights or had someone or something intervene before either of us won
-- Shoplifted: my nanny helped us once when i was about 10
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nah.. i didnt figure out i was supposed to want to do that till i was old enough to know better

-- Age you hope to be married: not when i'm ancient, but no big hurry.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3, and possible names are Alyssia, Natalia, Sean
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: lovely.. i'm lazy.
-- Where you want to go to college: ARGHH!! DONT ASK ME THAT QUESTION
-- Country would you most like to visit: China, Greece, Canada, Sweden

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 10
-- Number of CDs that I own: hell i donno
-- Number of piercings: ears. want belly button
-- Number of tattoos: space for rent
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: i dont read every newspaper in the world!
-- Number of scars on my body: hella lotta (have you never seen my legs after shaving?)
--Number of things in my past that I regret: regrets are useless. just learn and move on baby
freezefire666: i have a red dot on my screen! it's stuck there! and i'm about to go crazy because of it!
RJetta8V: lol
RJetta8V: that sucks!
freezefire666: i know!
freezefire666: it's some pixel that decided to rebel
RJetta8V: lol
RJetta8V: damn it
RJetta8V: damn it to hell
freezefire666: *damns the pixel*
freezefire666: DIE YOU EVIL PIXEL
RJetta8V: actually, you want that pixel alive
freezefire666: but maybe i could curse it into being my minion and doing my bidding again

drew's par-tay yesterday.... t'was good fun. texas chain saw massacre... hm.. not sure how to describe that one.. but at times it was really really funny. it was also pretty demented. DOGMA is the best. so, i enjoyed that one, of course.
the fact that my blogger 'new post' box doesnt have scroll bars verily much disturbs me.
i'm contemplating going rollerblading, but i just am so f*cking lazy these days. go to sleep at 2, wake up at 8, i'm sure that has something to do with it : P .
my room is stilll a bombsite. if you havnt heard the story, the bathroom connecting my sister's and my room is getting redone, as a pipe burst in the wall and made it swell up and look cool, but not actually be cool as it was breaking the house. so now while i was gone everything got thrown around in my room for some reason while the workmen came and knocked down walls and shit. as well as unpacking, as well as clearing off my desk to make room for my new laptop. so there just is no floor right now. there's not a single surface in my room save for the tops of my new laptops that doesnt have something on it. in most cases, it's many layers of something. there were also no doors on the bathroom for the first two days back.. that was verily annoying. but i have my door back now, so i'm happy. but my room is still disturbingly messy. i should distribute presents faster just to give myself more breathing space. a coke burst in my carryon, and i'm really pissed as now everything is covered in coke and that's just one more thing for me to do. urgh. oh well... i'm so happy to be back and spending time with you guys, it's great : ) especially racing down the road with alé and nick at night with music blaring.. who could forsake such a teen activity? : P

ps - it's too damn hot in texas.
freezefire666: i have a red dot on my screen! it's stuck there! and i'm about to go crazy because of it!
RJetta8V: lol
RJetta8V: that sucks!
freezefire666: i know!
freezefire666: it's some pixel that decided to rebel
RJetta8V: lol
RJetta8V: damn it
RJetta8V: damn it to hell
freezefire666: *damns the pixel*
freezefire666: DIE YOU EVIL PIXEL
RJetta8V: actually, you want that pixel alive
freezefire666: but maybe i could curse it into being my minion and doing my bidding again

drew's par-tay yesterday.... t'was good fun. texas chain saw massacre... hm.. not sure how to describe that one.. but at times it was really really funny. it was also pretty demented. DOGMA is the best. so, i enjoyed that one, of course.
the fact that my blogger 'new post' box doesnt have scroll bars verily much disturbs me.
i'm contemplating going rollerblading, but i just am so f*cking lazy these days. go to sleep at 2, wake up at 8, i'm sure that has something to do with it : P .
my room is stilll a bombsite. if you havnt heard the story, the bathroom connecting my sister's and my room is getting redone, as a pipe burst in the wall and made it swell up and look cool, but not actually be cool as it was breaking the house. so now while i was gone everything got thrown around in my room for some reason while the workmen came and knocked down walls and shit. as well as unpacking, as well as clearing off my desk to make room for my new laptop. so there just is no floor right now. there's not a single surface in my room save for the tops of my new laptops that doesnt have something on it. in most cases, it's many layers of something. there were also no doors on the bathroom for the first two days back.. that was verily annoying. but i have my door back now, so i'm happy. but my room is still disturbingly messy. i should distribute presents faster just to give myself more breathing space. a coke burst in my carryon, and i'm really pissed as now everything is covered in coke and that's just one more thing for me to do. urgh. oh well... i'm so happy to be back and spending time with you guys, it's great : ) especially racing down the road with alé and nick at night with music blaring.. who could forsake such a teen activity? : P

ps - it's too damn hot in texas.